All about Me

Alright so I have had several people ask me to update my "diet progress" so I am going to do that in two parts. Part 1) My eating has not been under very tight control recently. I have many excuses for this a) we went on vacation and my mother in law is an excellent cook b) we have been having lots of family celebrations/holidays such as easter, mother's day etc. But I am proud to say that I am BACK on the bandwagon and doing good again. I am down 3 lbs and for my aunt debbie that is an ADDITIONAL 3 lbs. I have had to lose about the same 6 over and over again because of all the reasons I just pointed out BUT I am back on the decline for good now. So grand total of weight loss is 38lbs. No major holidays coming up and I think I will stay away from all family outings/dinners in the coming month! Because I still have about 20 more lbs I would like to lose before I will claim that I heave reached my goal!

So part 2) is the working out. See I have a problem and maybe other people struggle with this also but I seem to get one part; say the eating part of the diet down really good but hardly exercise enough to burn off an apple OR I work out like a crazy person and slack on eating healthy. It seems like I can do either/or but not BOTH at the same time. Don't ask me why, it's a mentality thing I guess. I figure if I am doing well in one area I can slack in another. Not true! So I have revved up my work out regime in a BIG WAY. For mother's day ben got me a 10 class card to do bikram yoga. I have been wanting to do bikram yoga for a long time. I don't know if anyone remembers but during my working out with a trainer days I was told about this bikram yoga thing and how amazing it supposedly is for you and that it re-shapes your body. I'm kind of skeptical about that kind of thing because I am just not the earthy/zen yoga kind of person at all. In fact I find the whole center your being, make your outsides meet your insides stuff a whole bunch of hogwash but I REALLY wanted to try it because here a very musucular body builder man was telling me how he was skeptical but that it re-shapes your body and that's what I need. Then like a month ago I found out that my brother and beth (my sister in law) were doing this and really liking it so I started talking to ben again about how much I wanted to try it SOOOO for mother's day he bought me a package to try it. YAY! Monday night was my first class and to explain it a bit better it's hatha yoga which means it is done in a room heated to 105 degrees with 50-60% humidity. This helps to open up your muscles to greater flexibility. My first class I HATED! If there was a stronger word than hate I would use it! I thought I was going to throw up, pass out, and/or die. They told me I would feel this way but I guess you don't really understand until you go. And the whole time while I am in there feeling like I am going to die and wondering how all these people are able to get themselves in positions I am very far from I am thinking of my brother Jarod who has, I would guess, at least a 100lbs on me and like 7 inches...if he can do this surely I should be able to?!?! I mean jarod's in good shape but you would not immediately look at him and think "I bet he's really flexible". But he is. So those thoughts alone got me through the 1st class and Jarod and beth assured me the 2nd class I would do better. I went to my 2nd class last night and maybe I did a tiny bit better. Just knowing what to expect helps. I still hate it though. Don't know why anyone would choose to do this for any length of time but I am determined I am going to finish out my 10 classes within 30 days and then they claim "I will be a believer". Yeah I'm still skeptical. I can however tell you it is an amazing work out. I am sore in muscles I didn't even know I had. So other than that I am going to try and do weight and cardio training on the days when I don't do a yoga class and hopefully I will be able to master both parts of the healthy/dieting lifestyle. This is going to sound very cliche but despite the fact that I do want to be less "round", I also do really want to be healthy and strong. There was a time in my life when I was a very skinny girl (when I first went to college) but by no stretch of the imigination was I a healthy/strong person.

So there's the update on my progress. If you really didn't care to know then I'm sorry but it helps me to stay motivated when I know I have outlined my goals somewhere other than just in my head!